Saturday, July 3, 2010

today is gonna be the day ; seven

I know there's alot of talking in this, hope you're okay with that !

Backbeat the word was on the street that the fire in your heart is out


I slowly opened my eyes, they were blurred at first but eventually what I saw formed into a hospital room. Why was I in the hospital?

I looked around the room frantically, maybe something to tell me why I was here, or find someone I knew. I sat up but my head felt like it was going to explode and I fell back.

“Julie?”

I turned to look and saw some woman in a white coat looking down at me.

“Who are you and why the hell am I here?”

“You went to a bar on Friday night, your friend called you, a bit worried and you eventually told her where you were, and something happened after that, I can’t say what”

“So what? Just too much to drink?”

“No…someone actually drugged you” she said slowly, as if it would be any easier to take, “and you may have taken a few fists to the face”

“Wh--what?”

“I’m sorry sweetie, we pumped your stomach and everything”

“How long have I been out?”

“About 3 days…”

“Holy shit” I whispered to myself.

“I’ll go get Ally” she said leaving the room. Minutes later I saw Ally come through the door, she looked terrified.

“Hey” I said.

“Are you okay?” she asked.

“Um…well, I am now, a little terrified that this could have been a lot worse…I’m glad you got a hold of me before someone else did…”

She swallowed a lump in her throat and tears started forming in her eyes, “I can’t believe I made you come here, this is all my fault. How’s your face, it’s pretty bruised”

“It hurts…” I replied sitting up quickly, “Ally, I ran into Max before I went to the bar, him and his girlfriend, and it hurt like hell, he is why I drank, not you”

“So…”

“This is scary” I replied.

“Maybe going home will help you feel a bit better?”

“I like that idea” I sighed, “make sure you don’t tell my family about this…or anyone for that matter”

“Oh…see…that could be a problem”

There was a knock on the door and I saw one of the doctors, “There’s a Max Talbot here to see you, he refuses to leave until he does…”

I glared at Ally and she just shrugged, “I sent him a very angry text…and told him you were in the hospital”

“Let him in…I guess”

As soon as he came in Ally met him at the door, “You ass, you’re the reason she’s in here”

“Al…it’s okay” I said quietly.

She just glared at him as she left the room, then it was just the two of us. He looked tired, exhausted actually, like he hadn’t slept in days.

“Hey…”

“Are you okay?” he asked, “As soon as I heard hospital I was on a plane. Shit…”

“I’ll be okay…” I said sitting upright, “I feel disgusting though, and my face hurts”

“Get into it with someone?” he said sitting beside me.

I just smirked, “I guess so, I don’t remember”

“I’m so sorry…”

“It’s okay, you didn’t know what I would do, I’m unpredictable that way…you know that. I’m more worried about you though…you look exhausted”

“I haven’t been sleeping” he admitted, “ever since I saw you”

“Oh…well I’ve slept for three days” I smirked.

He just laughed, “you’re sense of humour is still intact”

“Max, what do you want?” I sighed.

“To apologize”

“For leaving?”

He just nodded, “I should have told you something…”

“What’s that?” I replied.

“I loved you”

My head shot up and I looked over at him, “You’re joking right?”

“I really did”

I shook my head in disbelief and kept my eyes in the other direction. He did not just say that.

“Why are you telling me this now?”

“Because you need to know” he shrugged.

I just sighed, “Well since we’re being so honest, I should probably tell you something”

“Okay…” he sat there listening intently.

“Well….the thing is, I--”

“Julie?”

“Give me two minutes?” I pleaded.

“Sorry dear, tight schedule, we have a couple more tests we need to do”

“Fine”

“Don’t worry” he said, “I’m sure we’ll talk again soon, I need to get back to the Burgh anyways”

“Okay”

“Ally has my number, if you need anything Julie…call me” he said leaning down and gently kissing my forehead.

I just half smiled, “okay, I will”

He left the room and I was left alone with the doctor. She half laughed as she began her tests. I just looked at her funny, “what are you laughing at?”

“I think you’re a little oblivious”

“What are you talking about?”

“He’s crazy about you”

I just laughed, “He said he loved me…as in past tense. We’re just friends now”

“He flew down here from Pittsburgh the moment he heard you were in here, he wouldn’t leave until he saw you, and the way he looked at you…he’s still standing out there”

“He said he was leaving”

“He won’t leave til the tests are done” she chuckled, “It’s so cute”

“He’s got someone else” I huffed.

“Well…that may be so, but he’s still crazy about you. I overheard him talking about you to your friend”

“Well, you’re a nosy one aren’t you?” I smirked.

“Sometimes I just can’t help it” she laughed.

I just sighed, “I don’t know if it’s in the cards for us”

“Well my dear, only time will tell”

As she finished her tests I laid back and closed my eyes. Was it possible that we might be able to work out again? I just don’t think that’s what he wants. He seemed happy with the other girl, I don’t want to mess that up for him. I don’t want to see him unhappy.

Then again, I would do anything to have him again. I would do anything so I can be happy again.

There are many things that I would like to say to you and I don't know how

Maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me